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i want you to know...im happy for you. <3
you probably dont give a flying fuck.....

but incase your wondering...I still think your fucking beautiful and I know you will be okay.
(you have her,)


keep that head held high.

i dunno if you believe this...but i have no desire to tell anyone. why would i?
only reason i told those two people, is because like i said... i was confused.

I always kinda knew.
i dont think any differently.

lets just put an end to this.
i meant no harm.

im not fighting anymore.

ill never forget you.

just two. people.
brittany & kaylah.

only because i was confused...

not because i was "talking about you"...

for that, i thank you.

deadto you, and everyone else.
including myself.

your smiles crush me, only because I am unable to do just that.
Expressions unsure of.

This mystery of feelings never felt.
ihateforyou.

a numbness so numbing you just lie in bed. never wanting to feel again.
Numb.

bitterness and strength mixed together to make a swirl of mass confusion.
which to feel the most.

you used me and moved on.
i have no one.

NOTE TO SELF:

yOU HAVE PEOPLE WHO LOVE YOU. BUT YOU ALSO HAVE PEOPLE WHO HATE YOU.
yOU HAVE DONE SOME HORRIBLE THINGS. BUT YOUR ONLY HUMAN.
tHERE IS LIFE BEYONG ESTEVAN AND ITS RUMOR PARASITIC FOOLS.
aS CRUSHED AND BITTER AS YOU ARE, YOU ARE A PERSON WITH FAMILY AND FRIENDS.
be grateful, FOR being UnGRATEFUL, Misery. CAN be Expected.

No I did not call you. No I am not going to call you. Dont wait by the phone dude, cause I sure the hell havent been. Infact I turn mine off quite frequently so I dont have to look at your bullshit messages you send.

Running away? No I call it...ending something that is never going to be fixed. We will never see eye to eye on this situation. I feel that we both see totally different situations at hand. You say I have not put myself in your shoes, well I can say the same to you, most definitely.

I have cried the same fucking tears man, the same fuuuuking tears as you. So dont tell me how to feel, and dont make up excuses, or point blame, cause its usually almost always me u point it at.

Like I said, you pulled this shit on jessica and kaitlin, then u pulled it on kylee, and now your pullin it on me. Maybe one day you will see that. Until then, I dont want anything to do with you.



You STUPIDDD, "two" faced, Definite,bitch. who uses, and abuses. you broke my heart over and over. and over. and over. like you wouldnt even believe.

well car car car carrrrly. I had this dream lastnight...where u were younger and you had the shoulder length straight blonde hair. no make up, and that smile. you were wearing a green hoodie. man you acted like u never even got in an accident. you acted like life was still moving along. you didnt go to heaven. u were right here all along.


if only...

&with the snap of my fingers, i wish this water i drink was vodka.

i wish this advil was ex.
& I. &i. i wish u were still here.